NANO Class 8 : Rav on the Strock {Edited}
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And I knew that when the time comes, and I'll be ready
And the creator will be ready
Because when the student is ready, the Creator will appear,
the teacher will appear... and there it was
all... the whole stage was all set
for what was going to take place
for what was going to take off
and from that moment on, boy did we take off
September 2, 2004, Las Vegas
When the Rav... when the first time they told me that he had had a stroke
the first day, everybody including myself said
well that's ridiculous, he couldn't have a stroke
Friday night, September 3, 2004
The most powerful, and yet painful moment, was Friday night
which ten of us, with Yehuda and Michael, with Karen,
being in Kabbalat Shabbat singing, and one,
and feeling the enormous love, and praying for the Rav in unity
that I never felt ever, we were totally one
nobody was in himself... one with the Rav, one with the spirit of the Rav
but all of us in that moment broke down crying
crying... and it was a moment of really realizing what the Rav is for all of us
that was a very very powerful moment, nobody could hold himself
That Shabbat as well, was one of the most happiest Shabbats ever
because, Yehuda decided already Friday
that the Rav is going to do the Kiddush for the third meal
even though the Rav was in a total coma
the Rav was not in a state anybody could tell us what's going to be
He decided he will awake, and all of us decided the Rav is going to do the Kiddush,
the blessing of the wine, Saturday afternoon
That was Friday night...
When I was in a coma
Did I know where I was?
I could see I was in another dimension
I could see I was in another place
and it felt good! It felt so wonderful
I don't think the soul really decides on whether it will come back, or whether it won't come back
it never wants to be here in this chaotic environment
when it can have "gan eden" (the garden of eden) all day and all night forever!
why would it want to return here?
to face up to more aggravation, more problems
what could be easier than sitting in "gan eden" with Moshe, with God, and studying Torah?
for me? the ultimate!... the ultimate
such a pleasure, such a "ta'anug"
And he walks in, and he takes one look at the Rav
And he grabs the foot of the Rav
and he says "Rav!"
And the Rav opens his eyes and said Karen
That was the moment that we were all crying,
this time from joy
crying from joy... it was the happiest moment we had
it was the biggest miracle we could see
defies everything, what the doctors said, what... anything will happen
and not just this, five minutes later, the Rav did the Kiddush
the Rav was holding the wine
the Rav could say the Kiddush, it was the most joyful moment...
from then on, we all...that certainty that we wanted to have
increased, and we knew, it's all a test
we knew it's all about us, we knew that the Rav,
he's doing something on such a huge, bigger level, beyond himself
beyond our regular 1% process frame
and the hospital didn't know what to do with me,
because, I was not talking like an average human being
I was happy, they couldn't understand how I could I be so happy
with such a serious condition, and they labeled it:
Very serious
In their estimation, it was very serious
and I said "I'm sorry gentlemen...
this is going to be your one case
that you will, that it will be taken out of the annals
of incurable, and it will become curable
and I will be your first guinea-pig
I will be the first proof
that NOTHING is incurable!
Nothing cannot be altered
and the recovery to them was remarkable!
and they didn't know... and they asked me
what do you attribute your recovery to?
and I said, very simple, the Zohar
Kabbalah...Kabbalah gives you the answers
on how to turn around things that are dreadful, that are awful
that are disgusting, that are painful
and turn them into one package of happiness
what I learned from the process
was sometimes that there are more important things
than what you think at that moment is so important
and try to look for the bigger picture
rather than the individual, particular picture
because every particular part
every detail, is only part of the bigger picture
but it's not the total picture
that for me was the lesson that I remember to this day
I was hoping I wouldn't have to go through that pain and suffering
I tried to avoid it... and it should be avoided
and it can be avoided
[off-screen: so why did you have to go through it?]
well someone had to go ahead and get the job done
so I was prepared to accept that... that call, that challenge
I did accept it
I do accept the challenge
The security shield doesn't let that energy
called "chaos"of whatever from entering into my domain
I'm... I'm protected
That's all wrong, there is no chaos
I did "seder" last pesach, so what's this all about?
A game between me and home, between me and Satan?
or is it a test... a test
to see how am I going to overcome this test?
will I break down and say "God help me! Get me out of this!"
or am I going to say, "I'm going to get myself out of this..."
that was the first thought that came to me
I'm not saying everyone can think like that
you've got to be pretty strong
I just... I don't mean to say that I'm strong,
but I'm strong in that belief... I'm strong in that belief
that the only one who can create miracles, is we ourselves.