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Hi everyone, welcome to class number 2 of Kabbalah 3.
Today we are going to speak about what we call the 4 phases.
The subject, the 4 phases refer to how the original vessel was created.
And how does it practically connect to our life?
More important, what we will try to learn today is how to build a true desire.
Because when we have the real and true desire,
the light will be there.
One of our biggest problems in life
we don't have a real desire, we don't have a real vessel.
And when their is no real vessel,
the light cannot be there.
Light cannot be constant.
So first lets understand the difference between false desire and real desire,
and then eventually we will learn about the 4 phases that it took the vessel originaly in the endless to be created
and we're going to learn to learn that those same 4 phases we need to under go
in order to build the true desire, the true vessel that can reveal the light in our lives.
The first understanding is,
the light is infinite and their is never a shortage of light.
As it says, " The cow wants to feed the calf more than the calf wants to drink from the cow."
The light wants to help us even more than we want to receive.
The light wants to give us abundance financially
Any type of prospereity
Health
Love
relationship
Inner strength
Manifesting our potential.
Creating miracles
Making a diference
All the blessings we want to have
The light wants to give us more than we want even to receive.
So what's missing?
We don't have a true desire.
Because at the moment their is a vessel,
the light will reveal itself.
Their is no cohesion in spirituality.
The light cannot force itself.
In the world of free will that we live in,
we need to have the vessel to activate the light.
All the blessings are already within us,
but we need to have our vessel, our true desire to activate and to reveal that light.
And i'm talking about before we get into the idea of sharing
or restricting
it all has to start with a desire.
Imagine the infinite blessings in the room
It can be water,
it can be health
it can be wisdom
it can be money
But as long as we don't have the cup that can hold that blessing,
That blessing does not exist for us.
So the idea how do we create the real cup, the real vessel.
So they are a few ingredients from lessons of the Rav Berg about what is a true vessel versus a false one.
So the first one is the idea of continuous desire versus temporary desire.
What is a temporary desire?
Yes, I want money!
Yes, I want to change!
Yes, I want to grow!
Today I feel bad, I feel dificulties
I'm sure I want it, I'm convinced, I'm motivated, I'm energized
and then when things are a little easier tomorrow,
when things don't seem to be as bad tomorrow,
or when I am a little to down
I give up
I don't desire anymore.
I don't crave anymore.
That's called temporary desire
Temporary desire is a false desire
The light cannot dwell in a temporary desire.
So the fact that today I'm saying, "I want, how come i don't get?"
It's a temporary desire.
It's very simple
I want the light, I need to be like the light
The light is a constant desire to give
If I don't have a constant desire to receive, how do I hope to connect with the light?
We ask for the light
We want to be in a world where we act like you
And it begins with a true lasting desire.
And it's not easy.
Because they are times that indeed I want something
But because we are so effected by our feelings
We don't want it so much the next day.
Intellectually we want it, but we don't want it so much
But that's the first thing that we want to learn how to create: lasting desire to receive.
Perseverance in my desire.
Constant vessel
When their is constant vessel
Nothing will stop me from achieving what I want.
That's one aspect.
Another concept is
Needy desire versus true desire
What is a needy desire?
When I'm desperate to want help from you, without appreciating you.
That's needy desire.
Very often, when I am so into myself
and I do not appreciate the light or other people around me
and I'm so needy to get what I want
or to relieve the pain that i have
I'll desperately push to get help from that person or from the other person or any type of help.
But the reason it's not a real desire
Because their is no appreciation from the source that is giving to me
It is just about getting what I want and that's it.
And that desperate desire, while I'm ruled by this desire, I don't care about the source that gave it to me.
I'm not really in an state of appreciation,
and I couldn't care less
if it will not be this person I'll go to someone else.
And the same is between us and the light of the creator
I'm going through major pain
I'm desperate, please please god help me.
Yesterday i forgot about god when I had issues
But now i need him, so I'll desperately ask for help.
And when things will be fine, I'm not desperate anymore
So back to normal.
So desperation that doesn't come from the heart and the soul and doesn't come from a place of appreciation is also not true desire
True desire is knowing that the light is the source of all blessings.
The light force of the creator is the source of all healing the relationship,
Healing physically
Spiritual abundance
Physical abundance
Inner change
is knowing and apreciating
So when I'm wanting to improve my relationship, I know it's the light of love in my life that i need.
or the light of financial abundance
So I know the source, their is appreciation for the source.
It's like a person that is penniless, who appreciates tremendously the quarter.
Because I need it.
Is it a true desire?
Maybe yes, maybe no
But when that person became rich, who cares about this quarter.
But when a person has a true desire
he has a dollar to his name, or he has a million dollars to his name
He will crave to connect with that quarter because he knows the light of the creator is in this money.
So it's not about comparing to me,
desperate desire is all about me.
It's not about appreciating light and vessel
giving and receiving, that circutry
So when there is no appreciation
and it is all relative to my problem or my no problem now
it's not a real desire
it's desperate
Kabbalisticly when a person is healthy, he should beg and pray for health
like the time he is not healthy
because the light of health is given to us daily.
the fact that I'm healthy doesn't mean that I don't need the light of health
It's a constant gift that is being rejuvenated on a daily basis.
but desperate desire is I don't need health
I have money issue now
I have relationship issue
Those are my issues god.
Then I don't care about god, it's all about me.
I don't realize that the light is the source of all things.
So true desire, my intensity of my craving to connect with the blessings of the light,
will be the same when I have a problem or when I don't have a problem
because I realize that the fact I feel good it's still the light giving me right now
and when that connection will stop I will lose it.
and its back to the idea of continuous desire
the light does not force itself
so at the moment there is no desire,
There is no appreciation- the source
the light cannot be there because their is no cohesion is spirituality
It will be bread of shame
So that's another ingredient of true desire versus false desire.
Another aspect of true desire, which is connected to the other 2, is that a true desire can never be full.
We can never be truly satiated
Because if I am sasiated
I'm limiting the light
Is the light limited?
The light wants to give me endlessly.
So if I am really connecting to my true desire
My desire gradually in life will expand and expand and expand.
And one of the reasons people would have chaos in their life
Because they allowed themselves to be so content with themself
and so full and so limited
so there's no more room for the light to come in
so when I'm truly connecting to my true desire
it's total expansion and expansion
and especially when we speak about the seed of all desires
which is the desire to grow spiritualy
How could it be limited?
How could I ever be satisfied with myself?
The question is, how do we build true desire? What are the steps?
And before I'm answering it, before I'm getting into the process of the 4 phases
It is important to know
That in every are in my life, and I want you as you listening to these words to look in your life
In every area in our life that we are lacking
relationship is not as great as i would hope for
financially it's not great
Spiritually, I'm not as excited as I used to be.
I'm feeling far away from my potential.
I have blockages and feel disconnected.
The first thing you need to ask yourself
If there is a blockage
If there is an issue
My desire needs to be truly built
There's no shortage of light, there's shortage of vessels.
It's never shortage of light.
and I'm saying of course things have to be for the sake of sharing with the right consciousness
But I'm talking even prior to that
First lets build the real and true desire.
So if we can look at our life
and see a blockage or something unsatisfying
That's one of the ingredients that show that I do not have a desire in that area.
and what do I need to do to build one?
so in order to learn that
I would like to go over the idea from Ten Luminous Emanations from Rav Ashlag.
which is based of Rabbi Issac Luria's Tree of Life and Rav Ashlag's commentary on it
and I had the merit to study about 600 lectures with the Rav Berg from the Ten Luminous Emanations
And I'll open up to the page that discusses how we were originally created
How the vessel, the original desire to receive was created
What is the step we had to under go.
I will start to read in Hebrew and translate
"Hebrew Reading"
what Rav Ashlag is telling us is very imporatant
He's saying the reason the why vessel had to under go 4 stages until it was established the real desire to receive
It's because when the light initially manifested the vessel, created the vessel, the light is only desire to give
and created a vessel which is the desire to recieve
originally the vessel was created and as it was created it was filled with the entire light
But is was not a real desire. Why?
Because a real desire, the vessel has to want
Because I want it, not because I was created that way.
and if I'm receiving only because I was created that way, then its not real desire.
The desire has to come from within, the craving has to come from within.
So the vessel has to undergo a process until the desire comes from within.
For example:
A baby is born to a very wealthy family
and the baby at birth is worth 1 billion dollars
Does it belong to him? Yes.
Does he have it? Yes.
Does he have true desire, that comes from within with true craving for that billion dollars?
The answer is no.
So there is no real desire and there is no real fulfillment.
and the reason the light of the creator wanted to allow us to go through steps until to we'll build a true desire
Because what does the light want?
he wants to share infinitely with us.
So the only way the light can share with us infinitley
and will cause us happiness and joy
if we truly wanted
For example
Does it make you happy right now that you don't have a toothache?
Most of you that don't have a toothache it doesn't make you happy. Why?
Because you didn't feel the need for a relief from a toothache
So yes intellectually I don't want to have a toothache.
But does it really make you happy?
The only way I'll be happy or fulfilled by something
If I have a true craving, " Wow I don't want to have a toothache!"
and then I am getting the relief from a toothache.
and that union between desire, craving and fulfillment creates joy.
If there is just ownership without true desire, it's not a real desire.
So what Rav Ashlag tells us is that the vessel has to undergo a process
That is starting from receiving roboticly, just being created that way
Through going through a step of developing not having or disconnecting or lacking
And then building
Yes! I really want that pleasure!
I really want that light!
I really want that joy!
So we needed and still need daily to undergo a four steps that our desire, our process, our consciousness needs to undergo
until we are in a place where we truly crave
If I'm just born with blessings, it's tough
and those blessings just stay forever
it's really tough to crave them, to desire them
But remember the light doesn't want to coerce us
The light wants to share, the light wants to cause joy
and the only way joy or fulfilment or happines will be caused
if I feel the lack of that blessings that I want to receive.
so initially the vessel was created without lack, the vessel had everything.
but then the vessel had to go through a process of developing a lack
not a chaos lack, a healthy lack.
Wow! I really want it, I appreciate it, I remember it, it's amazing, I would love to connect with it
and that lack, that's when there is a real desire.
That i feel I want from within.
Because even from the light's point of view
If the light is a sharing force and I am receiving robotically
Without truly craving it, I just get it
So the light is not a sharing force.
Even with your child or with your friend
you give when they don't even ask
They'll take it but they don't even ask. Why not, I'll take it
Do I have any apreciation?
Is it a lasting connection to the blessing that you give them?
Not at all.
So when you help someone the help will be real if they are lacking.
If they are craving
If there is apreciation
if there is a need
They know they need it
I know you need it so you better receive it.
It's not enough that I know you need it.
You need to know and that is the same relationship between us and the light.
I need to feel i need it.
without it their is no true desire.
So that's the bigger picture reason why it has to be a process
It cannot just be the vessel was born and the vessel has it all.
Another thing Rav Ahslag said
It's getting a little deeper
( Reading in Hebrew)
What Rav Ashlag shares with us
That of course the light of the creator is one force.
but it consists of 2 elements
and he said " whenever I am receiving directly the light of the creator
That is called the light of wisdom, the light of wisdom.
Whenever me as a vessel interfering with the direct receiving and saying "N0! I want to share, I'm not interested to recieve right now."
I want to give outside of myself
In that moment I'm not connecting to the totality of the light
Maybe later as a result I will
But in that moment that I'm focusing on sharing and giving
and I don't want to get anything for myself
In that moment I'm drawing an aspect of the light called "the light of mercy"
Because actions of giving are considered to be merciful actions
So when I am drawing
When I am acting like a giver
I'm drawing an aspect of the totality of the light of wisdom
Lets say 1% of it that's called the light of mercy
The goal is to be filled with the totality of the light, the light of wisdom and the light of mercy.
When we allow the light to share with us and I'm receiving it and I'm wanting it and I'm appreciating it
I'm connecting with totality of the light named the light of wisdom
When I'm solely focused on giving,
in that moment I'm concealing 99% of the light and I'm just getting 1% of the light called the light of mercy.
The goal is to have both. The light of mercy and the light of wisdom.
The light of mercy even though it comes while I'm sharing,
It's only 1% of the light of wisdom
But as we're going to learn, without the light of mercy I can't receive the light of wisdom. I need both.
But when we are speaking about the lightforce
the energy of miracles, blessings, joy, health, abundance, it's the light of wisdom that we all want.
So this is just an introduction to the idea of the 4 phases
That every time the vessel is focusing on giving
The light of mercy is being drawn
When we finally receive the totality of the light, it's called the light of wisdom
Now, before I'll get to the details of the 4 phases
Another thing from the Rav Berg I've learned
The usual way for most people creating a craving, because the idea is to reach a level I truly crave the light
not just desire " Ok, why not."
Crave from within is a process of first I have the light, I have the blessing
For exemple
I have money, I have relationship, I feel spiritual, I feel connected, I have love in my life
and then I'm going through a period where I am lacking, I'm suffering, I'm undergoing chaos
and the comes a stage, wow I remember what I used to have
I crave it, I love it, I want it back
That's one type of craving
Which is painful
Because I have to undergo chaos in order to realize that I'm craving the light, that I'm craving the blessing and I appreciate what I used to have.
and if you look at your own life, only chaos is the one to awaken us to appreciate the blessings we used to have
and to cause us to crave them again
What we want to learn from these 4 phases
How do we build desire without needing to go through chaos
How do we build appreciation without needing to go through chaos
But definitely has to be a process that a lack is being created
Because the only way a person can ever desire something
If he doesn't feel it
So it will always be a process of having a blessing
disconnecting from the blessing
and craving the blessing
in everything in life
and if you look in your own life, that's a cycle we're going through
The only thing is what we want to learn is how when we inject consciousness into it, we don't need to go through chaos
We might need to feel the lack of the blessings in our life
But it doesn't mean we need to undergo chaos in our lives
The goal, which we won't achieve it tomorrow it's an infinite goal, is to be able to crave every aspect of the blessing of the creator in our life
love, relationship, health, spiritual growth, crave and apreciate everything
But in practicality it's a constant process of 4 steps that we build the desire
and we lost it and we build it again (2x)
if we do the real spiritual work,
we can avoid chaos as a teacher to help us crave and to desire
So what else do we need to do, if it's not chaos?
to feel the lack
just think about it, if I don't feel the lack why would I grow
If you run a business and things are okay and you fulfill a desire and you don't have a lack, you don't feel I have to go to the next level
you will not grow
and it's not just you're not going to grow, because you don't feel the lack
you don't feel a strong desire
Even what you got, you might lose
and the same is by relationships
I carve it, I wanted it, I connected to that person, my soul made my connection
and gradually I'm losing that interest, that craving, I love her but their is no major motivation and craving me to make things better
Because their is no desire, I will have to undergo chaos
and chaos might awaken me to appreciate what I had before
we want to learn a different process
(Reading in Hebrew)
and we're back at how the original vessel in the endless was created.
And he says step number 1 was the step when the light created the vessel and the vessel was instantly filled with the light. That's called step number 1
Is it a real desire? No it's a passive desire
The vessel doesn't crave the light. It was born with it like a born with wealth.
That's step number 1
The vessel has no awareness of itself
The vessel did not have awareness yet "I want" and "I get" and " I'm so happy", he's born that way with the infinite light
So that's called step number 1
Step #4 will be I'm getting the same light and the same blessing but now I crave it, I appreciate it, I earn it.
I have tremendous desire for it, and it's a totally different experience.
Step number 1, it's a passive desire. I want, I was born that way.
but I don't really appreciate and feel and connect with those blessing
Step # 4 is the same energy but now I'm alive
I went through a process, I didn't have it, I felt the lack of it, now I really appreciate it and crave it endlessly from within.
The question is, how do we get to step # 4?
What are Steps #2 and #3 together ?
So what was the 2nd step, the 2nd phase we went through?
( Reading in Hebrew)
It was the 2nd phase
The second phase is in the vessel we are filled with the light, the light has desire to give, so that's the first awakening
We as a vessel, the first time we started to be aware from being a baby born with light to any desire, suddenly this desire to express the light in me which is desire to give
and that's the 2nd phase of the vessel
I have tremendous desire to give, tremendous desire to share, tremendous desire to impart
Everything! I don't want to receive anything. The light in me is an infinite desire to give and that is what I want. Endless giving!
That was the 2nd phase.
If you remember we said when the vessel desired to give, what type of energy did we draw?
The light of wisdom or the light of mercy?
Indeed the light of mercy
and we've learned that the light of mercy is 1% of the light of wisdom
Because at the moment I am just focusing on recieving