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Hi everyone, welcome to class number 2 of Kabbalah 3. Today we are going to speak about what we call the 4 phases. The subject, the 4 phases refer to how the original vessel was created. And how does it practically connect to our life? More important, what we will try to learn today is how to build a true desire. Because when we have the real and true desire, the light will be there. One of our biggest problems in life we don't have a real desire, we don't have a real vessel. And when their is no real vessel, the light cannot be there. Light cannot be constant. So first lets understand the difference between false desire and real desire, and then eventually we will learn about the 4 phases that it took the vessel originaly in the endless to be created and we're going to learn to learn that those same 4 phases we need to under go in order to build the true desire, the true vessel that can reveal the light in our lives. The first understanding is, the light is infinite and their is never a shortage of light. As it says, " The cow wants to feed the calf more than the calf wants to drink from the cow." The light wants to help us even more than we want to receive. The light wants to give us abundance financially Any type of prospereity Health Love relationship Inner strength Manifesting our potential. Creating miracles Making a diference All the blessings we want to have The light wants to give us more than we want even to receive. So what's missing? We don't have a true desire. Because at the moment their is a vessel, the light will reveal itself. Their is no cohesion in spirituality. The light cannot force itself. In the world of free will that we live in, we need to have the vessel to activate the light. All the blessings are already within us, but we need to have our vessel, our true desire to activate and to reveal that light. And i'm talking about before we get into the idea of sharing or restricting it all has to start with a desire. Imagine the infinite blessings in the room It can be water, it can be health it can be wisdom it can be money But as long as we don't have the cup that can hold that blessing, That blessing does not exist for us. So the idea how do we create the real cup, the real vessel. So they are a few ingredients from lessons of the Rav Berg about what is a true vessel versus a false one. So the first one is the idea of continuous desire versus temporary desire. What is a temporary desire? Yes, I want money! Yes, I want to change! Yes, I want to grow! Today I feel bad, I feel dificulties I'm sure I want it, I'm convinced, I'm motivated, I'm energized and then when things are a little easier tomorrow, when things don't seem to be as bad tomorrow, or when I am a little to down I give up I don't desire anymore. I don't crave anymore. That's called temporary desire Temporary desire is a false desire The light cannot dwell in a temporary desire. So the fact that today I'm saying, "I want, how come i don't get?" It's a temporary desire. It's very simple I want the light, I need to be like the light The light is a constant desire to give If I don't have a constant desire to receive, how do I hope to connect with the light? We ask for the light We want to be in a world where we act like you And it begins with a true lasting desire. And it's not easy. Because they are times that indeed I want something But because we are so effected by our feelings We don't want it so much the next day. Intellectually we want it, but we don't want it so much But that's the first thing that we want to learn how to create: lasting desire to receive. Perseverance in my desire. Constant vessel When their is constant vessel Nothing will stop me from achieving what I want. That's one aspect. Another concept is Needy desire versus true desire What is a needy desire? When I'm desperate to want help from you, without appreciating you. That's needy desire. Very often, when I am so into myself and I do not appreciate the light or other people around me and I'm so needy to get what I want or to relieve the pain that i have I'll desperately push to get help from that person or from the other person or any type of help. But the reason it's not a real desire Because their is no appreciation from the source that is giving to me It is just about getting what I want and that's it. And that desperate desire, while I'm ruled by this desire, I don't care about the source that gave it to me. I'm not really in an state of appreciation, and I couldn't care less if it will not be this person I'll go to someone else. And the same is between us and the light of the creator I'm going through major pain I'm desperate, please please god help me. Yesterday i forgot about god when I had issues But now i need him, so I'll desperately ask for help. And when things will be fine, I'm not desperate anymore So back to normal. So desperation that doesn't come from the heart and the soul and doesn't come from a place of appreciation is also not true desire True desire is knowing that the light is the source of all blessings. The light force of the creator is the source of all healing the relationship, Healing physically Spiritual abundance Physical abundance Inner change is knowing and apreciating So when I'm wanting to improve my relationship, I know it's the light of love in my life that i need. or the light of financial abundance So I know the source, their is appreciation for the source. It's like a person that is penniless, who appreciates tremendously the quarter. Because I need it. Is it a true desire? Maybe yes, maybe no But when that person became rich, who cares about this quarter. But when a person has a true desire he has a dollar to his name, or he has a million dollars to his name He will crave to connect with that quarter because he knows the light of the creator is in this money. So it's not about comparing to me, desperate desire is all about me. It's not about appreciating light and vessel giving and receiving, that circutry So when there is no appreciation and it is all relative to my problem or my no problem now it's not a real desire it's desperate Kabbalisticly when a person is healthy, he should beg and pray for health like the time he is not healthy because the light of health is given to us daily. the fact that I'm healthy doesn't mean that I don't need the light of health It's a constant gift that is being rejuvenated on a daily basis. but desperate desire is I don't need health I have money issue now I have relationship issue Those are my issues god. Then I don't care about god, it's all about me. I don't realize that the light is the source of all things. So true desire, my intensity of my craving to connect with the blessings of the light, will be the same when I have a problem or when I don't have a problem because I realize that the fact I feel good it's still the light giving me right now and when that connection will stop I will lose it. and its back to the idea of continuous desire the light does not force itself so at the moment there is no desire, There is no appreciation- the source the light cannot be there because their is no cohesion is spirituality It will be bread of shame So that's another ingredient of true desire versus false desire. Another aspect of true desire, which is connected to the other 2, is that a true desire can never be full. We can never be truly satiated Because if I am sasiated I'm limiting the light Is the light limited? The light wants to give me endlessly. So if I am really connecting to my true desire My desire gradually in life will expand and expand and expand. And one of the reasons people would have chaos in their life Because they allowed themselves to be so content with themself and so full and so limited so there's no more room for the light to come in so when I'm truly connecting to my true desire it's total expansion and expansion and especially when we speak about the seed of all desires which is the desire to grow spiritualy How could it be limited? How could I ever be satisfied with myself? The question is, how do we build true desire? What are the steps? And before I'm answering it, before I'm getting into the process of the 4 phases It is important to know That in every are in my life, and I want you as you listening to these words to look in your life In every area in our life that we are lacking relationship is not as great as i would hope for financially it's not great Spiritually, I'm not as excited as I used to be. I'm feeling far away from my potential. I have blockages and feel disconnected. The first thing you need to ask yourself If there is a blockage If there is an issue My desire needs to be truly built There's no shortage of light, there's shortage of vessels. It's never shortage of light. and I'm saying of course things have to be for the sake of sharing with the right consciousness But I'm talking even prior to that First lets build the real and true desire. So if we can look at our life and see a blockage or something unsatisfying That's one of the ingredients that show that I do not have a desire in that area. and what do I need to do to build one? so in order to learn that I would like to go over the idea from Ten Luminous Emanations from Rav Ashlag. which is based of Rabbi Issac Luria's Tree of Life and Rav Ashlag's commentary on it and I had the merit to study about 600 lectures with the Rav Berg from the Ten Luminous Emanations And I'll open up to the page that discusses how we were originally created How the vessel, the original desire to receive was created What is the step we had to under go. I will start to read in Hebrew and translate "Hebrew Reading" what Rav Ashlag is telling us is very imporatant He's saying the reason the why vessel had to under go 4 stages until it was established the real desire to receive It's because when the light initially manifested the vessel, created the vessel, the light is only desire to give and created a vessel which is the desire to recieve originally the vessel was created and as it was created it was filled with the entire light But is was not a real desire. Why? Because a real desire, the vessel has to want Because I want it, not because I was created that way. and if I'm receiving only because I was created that way, then its not real desire. The desire has to come from within, the craving has to come from within. So the vessel has to undergo a process until the desire comes from within. For example: A baby is born to a very wealthy family and the baby at birth is worth 1 billion dollars Does it belong to him? Yes. Does he have it? Yes. Does he have true desire, that comes from within with true craving for that billion dollars? The answer is no. So there is no real desire and there is no real fulfillment. and the reason the light of the creator wanted to allow us to go through steps until to we'll build a true desire Because what does the light want? he wants to share infinitely with us. So the only way the light can share with us infinitley and will cause us happiness and joy if we truly wanted For example Does it make you happy right now that you don't have a toothache? Most of you that don't have a toothache it doesn't make you happy. Why? Because you didn't feel the need for a relief from a toothache So yes intellectually I don't want to have a toothache. But does it really make you happy? The only way I'll be happy or fulfilled by something If I have a true craving, " Wow I don't want to have a toothache!" and then I am getting the relief from a toothache. and that union between desire, craving and fulfillment creates joy. If there is just ownership without true desire, it's not a real desire. So what Rav Ashlag tells us is that the vessel has to undergo a process That is starting from receiving roboticly, just being created that way Through going through a step of developing not having or disconnecting or lacking And then building Yes! I really want that pleasure! I really want that light! I really want that joy! So we needed and still need daily to undergo a four steps that our desire, our process, our consciousness needs to undergo until we are in a place where we truly crave If I'm just born with blessings, it's tough and those blessings just stay forever it's really tough to crave them, to desire them But remember the light doesn't want to coerce us The light wants to share, the light wants to cause joy and the only way joy or fulfilment or happines will be caused if I feel the lack of that blessings that I want to receive. so initially the vessel was created without lack, the vessel had everything. but then the vessel had to go through a process of developing a lack not a chaos lack, a healthy lack. Wow! I really want it, I appreciate it, I remember it, it's amazing, I would love to connect with it and that lack, that's when there is a real desire. That i feel I want from within. Because even from the light's point of view If the light is a sharing force and I am receiving robotically Without truly craving it, I just get it So the light is not a sharing force. Even with your child or with your friend you give when they don't even ask They'll take it but they don't even ask. Why not, I'll take it Do I have any apreciation? Is it a lasting connection to the blessing that you give them? Not at all. So when you help someone the help will be real if they are lacking. If they are craving If there is apreciation if there is a need They know they need it I know you need it so you better receive it. It's not enough that I know you need it. You need to know and that is the same relationship between us and the light. I need to feel i need it. without it their is no true desire. So that's the bigger picture reason why it has to be a process It cannot just be the vessel was born and the vessel has it all. Another thing Rav Ahslag said It's getting a little deeper ( Reading in Hebrew) What Rav Ashlag shares with us That of course the light of the creator is one force. but it consists of 2 elements and he said " whenever I am receiving directly the light of the creator That is called the light of wisdom, the light of wisdom. Whenever me as a vessel interfering with the direct receiving and saying "N0! I want to share, I'm not interested to recieve right now." I want to give outside of myself In that moment I'm not connecting to the totality of the light Maybe later as a result I will But in that moment that I'm focusing on sharing and giving and I don't want to get anything for myself In that moment I'm drawing an aspect of the light called "the light of mercy" Because actions of giving are considered to be merciful actions So when I am drawing When I am acting like a giver I'm drawing an aspect of the totality of the light of wisdom Lets say 1% of it that's called the light of mercy The goal is to be filled with the totality of the light, the light of wisdom and the light of mercy. When we allow the light to share with us and I'm receiving it and I'm wanting it and I'm appreciating it I'm connecting with totality of the light named the light of wisdom When I'm solely focused on giving, in that moment I'm concealing 99% of the light and I'm just getting 1% of the light called the light of mercy. The goal is to have both. The light of mercy and the light of wisdom. The light of mercy even though it comes while I'm sharing, It's only 1% of the light of wisdom But as we're going to learn, without the light of mercy I can't receive the light of wisdom. I need both. But when we are speaking about the lightforce the energy of miracles, blessings, joy, health, abundance, it's the light of wisdom that we all want. So this is just an introduction to the idea of the 4 phases That every time the vessel is focusing on giving The light of mercy is being drawn When we finally receive the totality of the light, it's called the light of wisdom Now, before I'll get to the details of the 4 phases Another thing from the Rav Berg I've learned The usual way for most people creating a craving, because the idea is to reach a level I truly crave the light not just desire " Ok, why not." Crave from within is a process of first I have the light, I have the blessing For exemple I have money, I have relationship, I feel spiritual, I feel connected, I have love in my life and then I'm going through a period where I am lacking, I'm suffering, I'm undergoing chaos and the comes a stage, wow I remember what I used to have I crave it, I love it, I want it back That's one type of craving Which is painful Because I have to undergo chaos in order to realize that I'm craving the light, that I'm craving the blessing and I appreciate what I used to have. and if you look at your own life, only chaos is the one to awaken us to appreciate the blessings we used to have and to cause us to crave them again What we want to learn from these 4 phases How do we build desire without needing to go through chaos How do we build appreciation without needing to go through chaos But definitely has to be a process that a lack is being created Because the only way a person can ever desire something If he doesn't feel it So it will always be a process of having a blessing disconnecting from the blessing and craving the blessing in everything in life and if you look in your own life, that's a cycle we're going through The only thing is what we want to learn is how when we inject consciousness into it, we don't need to go through chaos We might need to feel the lack of the blessings in our life But it doesn't mean we need to undergo chaos in our lives The goal, which we won't achieve it tomorrow it's an infinite goal, is to be able to crave every aspect of the blessing of the creator in our life love, relationship, health, spiritual growth, crave and apreciate everything But in practicality it's a constant process of 4 steps that we build the desire and we lost it and we build it again (2x) if we do the real spiritual work, we can avoid chaos as a teacher to help us crave and to desire So what else do we need to do, if it's not chaos? to feel the lack just think about it, if I don't feel the lack why would I grow If you run a business and things are okay and you fulfill a desire and you don't have a lack, you don't feel I have to go to the next level you will not grow and it's not just you're not going to grow, because you don't feel the lack you don't feel a strong desire Even what you got, you might lose and the same is by relationships I carve it, I wanted it, I connected to that person, my soul made my connection and gradually I'm losing that interest, that craving, I love her but their is no major motivation and craving me to make things better Because their is no desire, I will have to undergo chaos and chaos might awaken me to appreciate what I had before we want to learn a different process (Reading in Hebrew) and we're back at how the original vessel in the endless was created. And he says step number 1 was the step when the light created the vessel and the vessel was instantly filled with the light. That's called step number 1 Is it a real desire? No it's a passive desire The vessel doesn't crave the light. It was born with it like a born with wealth. That's step number 1 The vessel has no awareness of itself The vessel did not have awareness yet "I want" and "I get" and " I'm so happy", he's born that way with the infinite light So that's called step number 1 Step #4 will be I'm getting the same light and the same blessing but now I crave it, I appreciate it, I earn it. I have tremendous desire for it, and it's a totally different experience. Step number 1, it's a passive desire. I want, I was born that way. but I don't really appreciate and feel and connect with those blessing Step # 4 is the same energy but now I'm alive I went through a process, I didn't have it, I felt the lack of it, now I really appreciate it and crave it endlessly from within. The question is, how do we get to step # 4? What are Steps #2 and #3 together ? So what was the 2nd step, the 2nd phase we went through? ( Reading in Hebrew) It was the 2nd phase The second phase is in the vessel we are filled with the light, the light has desire to give, so that's the first awakening We as a vessel, the first time we started to be aware from being a baby born with light to any desire, suddenly this desire to express the light in me which is desire to give and that's the 2nd phase of the vessel I have tremendous desire to give, tremendous desire to share, tremendous desire to impart Everything! I don't want to receive anything. The light in me is an infinite desire to give and that is what I want. Endless giving! That was the 2nd phase. If you remember we said when the vessel desired to give, what type of energy did we draw? The light of wisdom or the light of mercy? Indeed the light of mercy and we've learned that the light of mercy is 1% of the light of wisdom Because at the moment I am just focusing on recieving