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Desteni Interdimensional Interview: Relationships and Agreements 2 - Alice Bailey

This is Alice Bailey continuing

Though an interesting point, opened up, in one moment within the interdimensional existence

within my experience of myself 'with' this particular being that

I decided, as well as he decided to be, 'in agreement with'

I had this- fear

which was, so suppressed

that I, did not recognize or see it, while- within the agreement with this being

and this fear was- me

literally, being vulnerable and completely open

in being able to, stand before all, and everything and everyone that is me and say:

This is who I am

meaning, standing in no shame standing, in no regret

This, fear was because, of- judgments

I had, of myself of what I've been and what I've done, and

which is deliberate dishonesty

So from my perspective, I did not, enter into the agreement with him, in absolute self-honesty

because I was still hiding, inside myself- with myself

because of this fear of being absolutely completely totally

unconditionally vulnerable and open

completely, absolutely totally, direct and straight forward

I would still accept and allow myself to compromise myself in situations

because I would not speak directly, I would-

want, to manipulate a situation or an experience

to make sure that I control me and my environment, so that I don't have to be open

so that I don't "have to be" vulnerable so that I can still close myself, within myself

to a certain degree, to make sure that "I don't get hurt"

so the fear of 'getting hurt' or- being harmed in some way, with regards to who I am

by being, with another human being was quite immense

(smile) and

so one day, well not one day one moment

the being I am in agreement- I was in agreement with well still am in agreement with

came, and

he looked me- he looked at me directly, stood before me

and he says to me: This ends, Here!

and he, turned around and walked away

(shocked)

wow, (laugh) I, completely, broke- into pieces, at that moment

and that was already an indication, that there was problem

that, I was not unconditional within this point of and as agreement because

if this point of me, entering this agreement was unconditional was self-honest

one and equal, as me as the being as 'all'

whether, we be in agreement or not in agreement, it should not have

made a difference, to who I am 'Here'

Yet! I fell into pieces I broke apart, I've broke apart

My entire foundation of me was, just shattered

and I was 'extremely' upset

(smile) I even went to a point where I, manifested myself into rain clouds

just to cry and cry and 'cry' (smile) because, I was

(sigh) I couldn't understand! because what was going in my mi- in myself was:

What did I do wrong!? did I do anything wrong? wasn't I good enough?

where did I make the mistake, and that's first had kind of went into my mind

went- in through in my mind 'through me'

until I 'stopped', and I looked at the point of: But wait a minute Alice

if you were actually self-honest, within this agreement

you wouldn't be experiencing yourself this way

So what's going on?

and then, that's where I saw the point of- my fear manifested

my fear of being 'hurt', by another if I were to have an agreement

or going to relationship, so even the relationships structure even existed within me

so I "wasn't actually", one and equal in self-honesty within an agreement

even though we spoke about it, within myself, there was still- 'us being in a relationship'

because of the-

accepted and allowed point of 'suppressing', that fear, of being harmed by another

So I realized that- that fear was actually, manifested because I was harming myself

from the perspective of, where

you really harm yourself if you accept and allow yourself to exist in fear

to accept and allow yourself to exist in- in in 'suppression'

because, it becomes so difficult

to try and, manipulate, to try to control, your world and your reality

to keep holding onto this fear, that apparently 'protects you'

and so it went all further now realize, that this 'fear of being Harmed'

was actually me, trying to protect, my

personality definition of myself, according to how I've "promised myself"

to never go into relationship, to never go- into any form of experience with a man

and, that 'promise' I made to myself, throughout 'Life times'

still existed 'very very' prominently within myself

and, Kieran, basically in that moment, he

'saw' what I was doing, to myself and therefore he had to manifest my fear

but it wasn't him, he was merely expressing

what I manifest within me and my world, my reality

so when he said: This ends Here!

he was not speaking to me as 'who I am', in self-honesty one and equal as him

he was speaking to my 'personality', defined mind manifestation

um and of course I completely went into that mind manifested- personality

mind demon! literally, and

afterwards the point where, I had to stand- is:

Will I be able to stand? in self-honesty here as one, as equal, as Life as all

without, anything or anyone

Can I stand, without Kieran?

through out, process until this is done

So it took me

awhile (laugh) to get to that point of

making sure that I will stand, with or without- needing, wanting or requiring to be

in an agreement with- a specific being

and that's what agreements entails, so to speak

while, in an agreement you must be able to stand so certain within yourself

that you do not

need require want or desire this being, to be here with you in this agreement

you 'each stand alone', one and equal in self-honesty

Yet the agreement, is one and equal - self assistance and self support

Alright, I'll continue in my next interview, thank you

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